Wish I could put her down, coz she's a bitch

A few years ago a mate got pregnant. she decided to have an abortion and I supported her the whole way through. A couple of months later there was a rumour going round about me her and another mate. They blamed it on me because I wasn't there to defend myself at the time. I was at a police station giving a video interview because i'd been assalted. I had confided in this girl and she said "I think it would be fun to be raped because it would be exciting as you weren't meant to be doing it" That was the first thing that pissed me of about her. After all i'd been through and she still said that to my face. It's just wrong. Anyway she managed to turn 3 people against me and i got emails from them all. And about a year later I get one from her 'you're a fucking idiot, u chat pure shit, even your (college)'friends' think you're a prick, You may have academic knowledge but wen it comes to common sense your'e lost''

For a start what is it about me that means she has to keep contacting me. The college 'friends'she's chatting about I don't even class as mates. She knows someone who knows a few of the people i used to hang around with and I told them that I didn't like her, which obviously got back to her. I didn't like them when i realised what they were like after a few months and it was obvious we didn't get on so I didn't put myself through trying to be friends with them and I don't think they liked that. They take drugs coz they think it makes them look cool. They don't do it for themselves which would be slightly better. they change their opinion depending who's with them. At least I can say I never changed myself coz I wanted to fit in with them. I never wanted to fit in with them and if that makes me a prick, fair play. I've got proper mates now. It may have taken a while and I might take time trusting people but I feel like I've met people who I can finally trust, people I get on with for being me and people who are happy being themselves.

Whats pissed me of is the fact they keep contacting me and coz i'm tired and got other things on my mind I just can't deal with it. Just let me get on with my life.

I met up with my ex for a blaze who I was so upset over when we split. We ended up kissing and now I'm confused about that as well as he doesn't seem to be acknowledging anything happening.

I've practically been living at the pub since I broke up and have run out of money. Which isn't good and means I've got to try and get another job.

Looking forward to Reading. It'll give me a chance to go completely over the top, get wasted and forget everything. Hopefully i'll feel better with some sleep though and won't need to get completely wasted.

Got to go to court a few days before my birthday. Not looking forward to that, especially if it overuns. It better not but it did take me 3 hours to give my statement. I think there's a few people going to be there but I can go after mine so that I don't have to meet the defendent which should make it a lot easier.

Anyway i'm off

xx